I don’t know why I care anymore. I thought I got over this person, but whenever I look at the pictures, I start shaking, and my heart starts burning. No, it’s not heartburn. I didn’t eat THAT many fried chicken wings last night. *sigh* I fell in love and am still in love even though I’ve told my friends that I’m over this person. My sixth sense tells me, I’m going to be in love with this person for quite a while…and even when I go into an official relationship, I think part of my heart will still belong to this person. Forever…and my sentiments also tell me that this person is the one. Seriously. That one day we will come together again.
Ugh. Why do I even care? I doubt this person can ever forgive me, and even if that’s possible, the friends won’t be able to forgive me. And now, my image is basically damaged at my high school. I know it doesn’t matter anymore that I’m in college, but it’s damaged to the point that the person won’t like to be seen in public with me.
So I’m letting go. I’m not going to mention this person to my friends. I’ve officially decided to let go even though I still will have feelings for this person.
Also, I think I’m starting to develop crushes on people now. I think…Sometimes I think that “I think” is just a figment of my imagination…it’s what I want, but don’t have. I don’t know. I stared a lot today, but forgot about it.
Next issue. Recently, I’ve been thinking about being “in love” and “loving.” Some people think these two states of sentiments are the same. They’re not. Being “in love” can occur at first sight. “Loving” is when one actually gets to know someone, so in reality there really is the phrase “love at first sight.” Sorry to cut this explication short. If I have time, maybe I’ll go into detail. For now, I’m over this person. I’m saying this for the millionth time, but I’m OVERRRRRR. =]
